Story time: The time I cried at FedEx

So I was inspired to write something different today. My love letter to gluten containing foods will continue to grace your minds soon. I've had this memory replaying in my head for the longest time and I want to write it out and give my mind some peace.

I was in my 2nd year of pharmacy school and all hell had broken loose. I was taking a class I can't seem to remember but I know it was hard because each year in pharmacy school was progressively harder so they all felt like the worst year of my life. 

It was a Friday I believe and I had an exam the next week. I had missed my delivery from FedEx; which always happened because I was either working, interning, doing research or in school.  The delivery truck with my package hadn't returned yet so everyone who had stuff on my route was pretty much stuck in there. We had to wait a while to get our packages. 

Then a Caucasian lady who was sitting next to me started talking to me. I was not in the mood for conversation. I had a test coming up, I wanted my damn package and I wanted to be gone. But I'm too polite to be rude to someone who just wants to talk so I indulged her.

She started out by saying how awfully long the wait was and I agreed with a "Yeah. Its ridiculous. " Hoping to dead the conversation pretty quickly.  She got the message I think.

I had a t-shirt on with my school logo and she asked If I went there and I said yes. I told her I was in pharmacy school. " That must be rough" she said. She had no idea. 

Pharmacy school was and is still a huge regret and at the time it was absolute hell suffering for something I didn't want to do. 

" I actually have a really hard test coming up and I just want to leave but I can't cause I've already wasted so much time here, might as well get what I came for."I blurted out in frustration. 

"You'll pass. I just have a feeling you will.  its okay. Everything will be okay. I have teenagers at home and I'm so exhausted. They go through a lot too and its hard not to take on the stress for them you know? But you'll pass. I believe you will."

My eyes became extremely heavy and I could feel tears already forming but I bit my lips and dropped my head. This stranger had so much faith in me when I had none in myself. My heart couldn't take it and my head couldn't comprehend it. I was confused. 

"Wow! I don't know why, but I feel like crying. Like that wouldn't be awkward, just balling in a FedEx!" . She laughed it off.

We both felt it. In that moment, she probably synced with my frustration and she must have had a pretty open heart to be willing. Not long after, we got our packages and said goodbyes. 

I aced that test.