"Ch- Ch- Ch- Ch- Changes! All changes are strange!"🎶

First of all if you don't know where the title is from you have wasted your childhood. Ask God for a redo.

But fun fact! All my life I sang it that way until I checked the lyrics right after I wrote the title then realized it's actually "turn and face the stranger". My childhood and Shrek sing-alongs will never be the same again! 😭

So seriously-seriously, I've had the unpleasant pleasure of going through a lot changes recently and to put it simply, it sucks. I had a certain vision for what my life should have been like and I was open and ready to welcome the change. Things certainly changed but not remotely in the way I hoped.

It went like this, after graduation my family came for the summer in August. That was change number one which was most unwelcome. Not that I was not happy to see my family but for most of my life I've lived very independently and if you have lived in a very Nigerian household that's a dream that often never comes true. So my style was cramped instantly, I was constantly angry and snapping at everybody. Living with me became an extended version of Taming of the shrew. Eventually I became sick if fighting because I learned that they would leave on my birthday. That was the light at the end of my tunnel, until they pushed the light further.

The day before my birthday, my great surprise and birthday gift was that they were staying and weren't leaving anytime soon. In fact my parents planned on leaving my two youngest siblings with me, therefore making me their caretaker when my parents leave. Change number two.

I still had no job, no interviews coming up, the jobs that i molded myself for and the jobs I felt qualified for rejected me. So unforeseen unemployment was my big change number three.

At this point, I would have fits of maniacal laughter that showed I was simply losing it. Because how does a college graduate with a doctorate go from sky is the limit to single mother of two receiving money for the house from her dad, with nothing to her name, without the wedding or honeymoon, or bankruptcy after failing at my career. I didn't give myself a chance to see if it couldn't be painful or if there was a bright side.

Don't be fooled guys it still sucks having to wake up and make sure these kids don't miss the bus every morning and I have a constant supply of lunch money in my purse. But I've come to peace with all these changes and I know it's for the best for now. Who knows how miserable I would have been in an alternate situation, but then I can't help but wonder could I have been happier?

Whatever changes are causing your stress binge-eating and crying try to remember that there will be an end to the change, because change is the most constant thing in the world. Live to see the change to your uncomfortable change. Like Rodney Atkins said " If you're going through hell, keep going don't slow down, If you're scared, don't show it,you might get out before the devil even knows you're there".

Have a good one!